Love letter

Here's me with my new love in Aussie, love letter. =)
It will definitely be my best companion here for my overseas life.
Thank you B.Ben. It really means a lot to me. =) I love it "lots".

天青色等烟雨，而我弹为你。

琴声缓缓奏起，隔江千万里。

爱你不怕，那一点指茧，你六条弦有时真的按得我太痛，

我手指一直找，换和弦换指法，我只能不停的练，直到我将你弹会。

爱你不怕，那一点时差，就让我静静一个人出发，

你的心总有个经纬度会留下，我会弹进你世界，跨越爱的时差。

个人非常欣赏方文山写的每首词，搭上周式曲风，当真一绝。

努力向气质文艺路线迈进. =)

重新开始

所以，事隔三个月，我又回到了墨尔本，我第二个家。

重新回来的感觉，满好的。真的，当然，不会比回马来西亚好。
怎么说呢，也许是闲晃了太久吧，需要有一些事情做才会有存在感吧。
真的是劳碌命，不做有意义的事情，会内疚。

另外，重新和墨尔本的朋友见面，感觉也很棒。
感觉大家都有了一定的默契，虽然不见三个月，友情却似乎比以前还深厚。
尤其我最亲爱的屋友，Ziyin，现在真的是无所不谈，几乎天天都如影随形。

重新念书的感觉，也很好，第三年了，越来越难，也越来越有挑战性。
与其荒废岁月，念书的感觉是很好的，我不是nerd lol, 只是至少对我来说，念书是有意义的事情吧。

学了吉他，对音乐更有热诚，每每听歌时，都会想像吉他的刷法和指法。
只是我暂时还没买到吉他，所以只能上youtube望梅止渴了。

理想：找到一份pharmacy的兼职，加入research的行列

对现在的生活：有热诚，有冲劲，有憧憬。希望这份热血不要那么快退下。=)
重新开始，感觉很好。

Guitar and I

This is the most meaningful thing I did since I came back to Malaysia ba.
Seriously in love with guitar.
Press chord, change chord, strum, sing, pluck.
I'm gonna master you guitar! P/s: barre chord, why you so hard!!!

The only bad thing about playing guitar is, my fingertips are no longer smooth and reddish. Dead skin cells started to grow and my fingertips became coarse and yellowish. Anyway, it's a new thing I experience and I really enjoy it, so I don't care so much. =)

At least one task is accomplished during this period.

Countdown:
13 days to CNY! I love CNY!!
27 days left before going back to Melbourne, kinda miss Melb gang =)

Hello All

Hello All. Greeting from Malaysia.
Yea, I'm back in Malaysia home sweet home for more than one month already.
Time passes so fast that although I feel that I didn't do much thing, it's already 2013 yeah.

So I went to quite a lot of places in the past one month, like Phuket, Krabi, Singapore and attended few parties. Oh yea, I did went to Sydney before I came back.
Overall, Sydney is an awesome place for tourists, very happening and beautiful.
For Phuket and Krabi, it's actually my second visit there. Last year, I went there with friends but this time I was with my family and by cruise. Overall, the trip was enjoyable as well. Likey the environment inside the cruise, the companion of families especially Chloe who made a lot of laughters. She's a lovely girl though she's naughty sometimes.
For Singapore, we stayed at the famous Marina Bay Sands Hotel and the hotel is really beautiful and comfortable. The service is excellent and the environment is relaxing and beautiful. Loving the rooftop pool, which you can view the scenery of Marina Bay from the top. Besides, I enjoyed the trip so much because I shopped quite a lot there at my lovely Bugis, lotsa nice and cheap clothes there. A shopping heaven hahaha. And I really should stop shopping by using the CNY as excuse you know. I think my new clothes can afford me from chu1 to chu15 ad.

Already chillax for more than one month, it's time to improve my self value.
Will read more books and also work hard on my project. Oh did I mention my results for the year. Overall, hard work was paid off and my result was quite good. Got all HD except for the stupid OSCE which makes my GPA no longer 4. But it's ok, I take this imperfection for good so that I will not push myself so hard to get all HD ad since the GPA will not become 4 again anyway. Kinda optimistic lol.

And yea, it's a new year now. Hope all the things get better and a good year ahead.
My ambition this year is to get a pharmacy or research job, to gain some experiences as well as earn some AUD.

That's all for the time being, will update my blog infrequently so stay tuned.

Fight or Flight

Fight or flight, an automated physiological decision that you will make during stressed, threatened or emergency situation. And I find it very applicable to study.

At the level of maximal stress, either you continue sitting fighting for exam (I assume most of the people do), or you will choose to do anything else, don't bother anymore (flight).

For example, given a very hard topic you seriously hardly understand, what's your response. My response is, I will go and do something else first (flight) before touching the notes, then continue fight for it at the later time.

Or have you tried this before, on the night right before your exam, when your stress level is super high, and what you are supposed to do is to strive your very best utilizing the time left to recap everything. But, you just can't take it anymore, choose to flight and go to bed.

Interesting right? the mind says go fight go fight, the body says go flight go flight. what your body will do then? Integration! The ability of body to receive multiple signal and produce the appropriate response, especially when the signals are opposing each other. Then, there will be a balance between the two and you will study with optimum motivation.

So, study study study, ok well, everything runs into mind now. I can definitely remember this and that. But then, oh no, desensitization takes place, a negative feedback process when you body detecting that you are studying too much (overload), starts to shut down your reception and concentration for study.
At the time, you should just stop, take a break, remove the stimulus (study), which will makes your body system to become sensitive again.

I think, the tips for making study efficient is, build up a strong basis on the topic. When you start to understand everything from the basis, you will find it very easy to remember and comprehend stuff, which would definitely amplify your study input into a much larger outcome. For example, you study about this topic in another unit, ok then, you find that you can apply the knowledge to another topic too, so on and so on. The accumulation of these collective knowledge on the topic will eventually amplifies what you have studied and allows you to really comprehend the stuffs.

Happy studying everyone!
so, fight or flight?

FIGHT now, then we will FLIGHT home soon!

给我最亲爱的妳

若晴出生了，比什么都值得。
我不是亲生经历，可是我觉得我懂得满多。
我想，只有姐妹才会更加了解得深，更加为彼此心疼吧。
我真的很庆幸七月的时候，我选择了回家，虽然不能见证你怀胎十月，至少我有机会陪了你一个月，跟你一起度过你人生奇妙的阶段，更深刻地体会到你的快乐和辛苦。


你常常说你是我的借镜，我也真的那么认为，所以当你告诉我你怀孕期间经历的种种甜酸苦辣时，我也会想，那是未来的我（都觉得难捱）。所以我真的很为你骄傲，当若晴出生的那一刻，她的哭声应该鼓舞了妳那十个月的怀胎吧，我也很欣慰的为你开心，你终于挨过了！=D

十个月就如我在外国念书的时间，漫长啊漫长，尤其还要经历种种不同的问题，还要大腹便便地过生活，只能说，孕妇们，你们真的很棒！所以下次看到孕妇时，请不要议论他们的身材走样，因为她们还有勇气走在人前还幸运地被你们看见，要关心的其实是她们的健康，心情，那是孕妇的最大挑战。

生完后，还要做月子。那一个月，不能洗头，不能冲凉，要吃很多上火的食物，要照顾孩子，要挤奶，要存奶，要担心奶够不够，要担心孩子饱不饱。在这一个最需要休息让身体调养的月里，还是存在着那么多的担心，还要保持跟以往完全不一样的生活作息，听姐姐亲口描述，真正体会到妈妈们都是超人，真的，要多爱你的妈妈。

姐，要多休息，我懂你个性，总是很认真地要做好每件事。但不要给自己那么多压力，孩子固然需要呵护备至，但你的身体也一样重要。这一个月很难过，但还是会过去的，我回家时，我要看到白白胖胖的若晴，还有健健康康的你。=D

我最亲爱的妳，好好照顾自己<3>

小叔，一路走好。

最后，小叔还是敌不过病魔的纠缠。
小叔从昨天起就囔着要回家，在医生从小叔身上拔掉所有仪器的那一刻，我们也默然地接受了。

大家昨晚都回阿麼家了，为了要见小叔的最后一面。
这是出国留学的辛酸，做不到什么，甚至也见不到小叔最后一面。。

淡淡地，小叔在今早4.30闭上了双眼，再也不睁开了。
仔细回想，最后一次见小叔是上两个月我回家过冬假的时候，没有想到，就这样，怎么也见不到了。

小叔，您一路走好，我们会好好照顾您的家人和阿麼。
怀念您。

给小叔

刚刚收到了姐姐的短信，说小叔的情况不乐观了。
这病魔缠了他好多年了，本以为已经渐入佳境，怎知又再重来，还特别地严重。
我不禁黯然。

小叔给我的印象，从小就是个很好很亲切的人。
跟其他叔叔比，相对地年轻和健谈。

小叔很孝顺，就算有了一定的经济能力，还是选择一家人住在祖屋陪伴阿麼。
阿麼是个很传统的阿麼，生活很简朴，喜欢自己种菜和养鸡，给自己和送别人吃，下雨时还会放桶盛雨水。虽然鸡寮的味道真的很不好闻，盛雨水也不卫生，小叔除了偶尔劝劝阿麼，还是顺阿麼的意，让阿麼有自己自足的快乐。（后来，阿麼考虑到卫生，也不养鸡了）


小叔对自己很省吃俭用，只有新年的时候才会带一家人去看电影，只有过节的时候才会上餐馆吃，可是对别人却很大方。
亲戚的旅行，从租巴士，定饭店到饮食三餐，小叔都全包，他说，最开心的是可以全部亲戚一起玩一起旅行。
因为小叔很大方，兄妹们有什么困难时都会第一时间找他。无论兄妹们向他要求什么，他几乎都不怎么拒绝，是个很好很顾兄妹情的人。

小叔对我很好。中学的时候，每天早上都让我搭顺风车载我去学校。
从UPSR，PMR, SPM 到我出国，都会主动在成绩放榜的那一天打电话给我，奖励我的红包也绝对是最大包的。

小叔也很聪明，低调地经营着农药店，脑子里却有很精明的理财之道，侄子侄女们都会向他请教，他也不啬与大家分享。

可是，性格很好的小叔，如今已躺在ICU将近两个礼拜的时间了。
听着姐姐说小叔的病情，还有小叔母的心情，我们都很心酸。

家人在病院里，除了担心和等待，真的做不了什么。
只能为小叔祈祷，愿上天保佑他度过这一个病劫，早日康复。

May God bless my uncle and his families.
Sincerely.

Winter 2012

手指冰冷地打着键盘，想写出一篇文章。

就这样，我从温暖的家又回到了这个冷冰冰的墨尔本。
一下机的冷风让我好想念在家一打开门的那一股热气。
墨尔本什么都好，就是太冷~~~

所以呢，开始了第四学期，相比之下，头几个星期实在轻松得很，有种还在放假的感觉。
最夸张的有到，上了两天课，放假五天的那种悠闲（其中一天自己放）。

随着这个看似悠闲的平静，有种不知名的压力渗透着冷冷的空气。
看似悠闲，事实是这个学期需要自动自发做的东西很多。


别谈念书这回事，聊聊生活。
现在的生活也很平静，平静得有些烦闷。
似乎真的离城市太远，心中那把四处探索的火也没了。
又或者大家已经适应这里的生活，那把火也灭了。
总之，冷冷的冬天，很让人讨厌，让人懒懒的，让人烦闷。

冬去春来。小鲍你几时要把春天带来墨尔本？

这三个月就这样过了

It's time to really write something. I can see mushroom gonna pop up in my blogspot. LOL.

What's the matter with me? abandoning the blog like for ages.
It's like err. don't know, no ohm to write something here. lack of some kind of feeling.

haha .. sooo .. time really flies ehhh ...
tomorrow will be the last day of sem3. waaa it's like I just come back to Melb not long ago.
so how was sem3 ya? em, as usual, lotsa stuffs to study, stressful when tests all cramp together. but ya, kinda get more and more into pharmacy d, like how to behave as a pharmacist-wannabe, the personalities etc. Thanks to the subject "Pharmacist as communicator". although as usual, I don't like non-science subject like this, but I do learnt alot from this subject, not only preparing me to become a pharmacist, but also to become a better communicator (hopefully).

So, after this will be our SWOT VAC, which is study leave.
kinda like the exam timetable this year, kinda nicely spaced so that we don't have to cramp so much.

ok, enough of study stuffs. how's life ya?
err, kinda stressful this week >.< you can see from my face, I hate you pimple pls go away !!
yea, and living a life as usual Melb student lives.
oh yea, I love my new house =D though it's abit far from city (take half an hour tram), but it's still adorable and very comfortable to live in.
and I love my housemate too. what we cooked was fantastic hahaha.

but yea, kinda get boring with the routine here.
I wanna try something different, like something odd. but I have no idea what to change. just feel bored of myself. haiz >.<
how to live like 天天有不一样的精彩。

that's it for now. good girl finish writing a post. good job. =D

No more dim gaii

Hello.

haha .. Finally I get a house. woohooo.

hahaha .. happy =D

Dim Gaii Homeless 2

One week gone and I am still homeless..

sigh.......
don't know what to say and what to do d..

dim gaii don't you give us a permanent place to live?

dim gaii. moody =(

Dim Gai Homeless

Heya what's up.

I am back in Melb, the crowded but lovely city.
currently, I am still under the status of homeless, paying lotsa fruitless effort to look for house but disappoint again and again. dim gaiiii !! dim gaii so hard to get a house in melb!! dim gaiiii ... (haix, I miss my own orangey bedroom).

despite of the disappointment, life is kinda lively here as some friends are paying visit to Melb (jiayang, yeejin and joonkin). Went out quite a lot with them and these outings just make me feel more home. Gathering with hometown friends makes me feel warm, relieve my stress of homelessness.

so ya, it's year 2 already and the coursework is getting harder and harder, especially on the oral part. Being a pharmacist really needs to have excellent communication skills, fast thinking and ability to cope with different kind of patients. Already feel kind of gg during the second tute of pharmacists role playing.
dim gaiii!! dim gaii the timetable so packed so hectic??!! dim gaii they can put 6 lectures in one day?? dim gaii...

I think I will always remember the every bit of this homeless period, a great challenge to overcome and we have to resolve it on our own.
These days, I always remember a phrase that my friend used to say, "前方是绝路，希望在转角". you know who you are <3
I really hope that we can get a house soon enough and everything is on the right track.

Best regards,
Shiau Shuang (tumpang at cousin's place and using her landlord's wifi).

聊天

这里就快要生灰尘了。哈哈哈。

是这样的，生活忙碌，在马时间宝贵，部落格时间被削短。
这些日子都在做些什么。顾chloe,跟妈到处shopping,跟朋友聚聚，睡美容觉，保持身材不可以胖。LOL..

最近都不理那些人。

最近有一个艳遇，我就知道你在瞄我，哈哈哈，讲真，我也有偷瞄你一下啦。
可是最后也不了了之哦。做朋友吧。=D

最近买了一架新相机，两千刀的gf2（明年要打工赚钱了），希望我会用吧。

圣诞节那天去了一次clubbing,原因是太久没去加上寿星邀请。
不喜欢。热，烟味，色迷迷的眼睛。

跨年那天会去霹雳的bukit larut。
一月会去Phuket。
二月会去台湾。
二月回去墨尔本。那是唉，不是爱。

请不要

喷嚏打不停。一天至少超过十次。
是不是你特别特别想我，一天至少超过十次。

可是我可以跟你说我没有在想你咯。
现在这种生活很写意，请不要来打扰这节奏。

不止一个，你们三个可以慢慢来吗？
在我回国后，一次过爆发，会让我无所适从。
真的很辛苦很辛苦。
尤其是在夜深人静时，我不晓得明天该怎么办面对才好。

就是你们三个，伤风，喉咙痛，发烧。
在前面对号入座的人，不好意思。=b

对，真的要病了。=(

你和妳好

Hello ~~
So ya, I am back, in my lovely hometown, Jenjarom.

Saying hi to you and you.
Life's so good in Malaysia.
Get to have breakfast with family every morning, compared to soymilk and cereal back in Melbourne.
Get to talk and joke with my papa and mama.
Get to shop alot in here. In just one week plus, I have been to almost all shopping centre in kl and selangor except those three in Bukit Bintang.

Get to see some friends. =D
Get to dance.
Get to sleep on my own bed, dress up with my wide variety of clothes in my big big wardrobes.
Get to play with my niece and nephews.

Carefree life. hahaha ... just love it.

等一个人飞机

从墨尔本回来了，但还没回到家，这几天都在sook yee的家待着，跟sook yee的弟弟keng chiu玩，还有偶尔在molek 和 jb 一带跑跑。也去了一趟新加坡。

结论是，jb的包包 和 鞋子比kl的美。haha ...
还有新加坡的bugis street真是太好逛了。
这几天真是很豪迈的花了好多ringgit和新币。haha ..
果然，就如我一直强调的，malaysia真的是比melbourne好逛啦。。。
还有就是，谢谢sook yee一家人的热情招待。=D

由于呢，我家可儿明天就满月了，原本计划的柔马家人温馨之旅就暂时hold住了。
所以呢，只好搭乘air asia回家了。

由于要配合laura回古晋的时间，所以原本10点才飞的我7点多就已经到机场了。
也由于是air asia廉价航空，在送了laura之后，才知道flight被延迟到了11点。

真是泄气。

所以呢，现在我就很悠闲地坐在lavender bistro等入境的时间。

开了电脑，有点想学平时部落客在咖啡厅写部落格的感觉。
所以就在这里写一写了。

while waiting

一个人等飞机。

要考完试的前两天

今天起得早，早餐吃得好，整天在用脑，烦恼多不少。
所以呢，为了奖励我这几天废寝忘食（最好是，我最喜欢睡觉，还有最好可以忘食，我要减肥），今天早上去了一间high class蛋糕店吃早餐。

Latte and Pear Blueberry Cheese Cake at Brunetti. Yum Yum !!!

吃了这一餐，真是给了我好有精力的一天。
因为，本人对咖啡因超级敏感，心一直跳得好快好快，脑也转得好快好快（最好是）。

话说呢，这几天我都是非常非常努力得在读着我要考的最后一科，心理学。

读了这么多天，对这一科有点改观。

从考试的角度来看，我真的有点讨厌这一科啦。
不过，讲真，从个人兴趣来说，我开始喜欢上它了。

短短的4天，被逼着要读那本厚厚的课本，越来越发现心理学好有趣。
让我明白有些看似荒唐的事其实是很有科学根据的。
一些生活中的小事其实都可以用心理学来分析。
小孩子为什么会顽皮。等等。

就说说一些例子。
为什么会有911事件，难道那些飞机hijacker疯了吗？不顾自己的生命危险，还有家人的安危，去撞世贸大楼？
其实他们并非疯了，只是他们undergo deindividualization, 往往在一个group里，你就会迷失了自己的身份，转而去adapt to the group norm or 那个组织的身份，让你做出一些你平常一个人不做的事情。像flashmob等等。

还有婴儿在出生后的几个星期，其实是不会认人的，因为他们还处在visual acuity,也就是说在他们眼中你们都是模糊的。
然后你不断跟他说话。可是，要知道，婴儿在大概六个星期的时候就后暂时失去听觉，直到三四个月大的事候，才又听得见。

还有，当你需要帮助时，你往往会认为越多人在现场，你就会得到越多帮助。
其实事实刚好相反。
当某人知道别人也在场时，就会有一种现象叫做pluralistic ignorance.
意思是说，在场的每个人误导在场的别人，把那个紧急需要帮忙事件判断成为不紧急事件，所以就没人去帮忙了.
还有一个解释的概念叫做diffusion of responsibility.当每个人知道别人也在在场时，那个责任的重担就不再落在一个人的身上了，所以没有人要负责任去帮忙，变成了没
有人帮忙。
还好有两个model 是可以平衡的。
role of helping model - 也就是说当其中一个人伸出援手的时候，别人也就会跟着帮忙。
role of information - 在你了解这些我说的以上的concept后，你就不会是那些袖手旁观的人了。也就是我要传递的讯息了，在紧急的时候，要适时地帮忙，因为你的反应将影响他人的反应。


还有其他有趣的，我懒惰写（我又不是要开拓心理学部落格）。
只是要跟大家分享下一些有趣的知识。
如果这个post有闷到大家，对不起。。。=D

references: Atkinson and Hilgard's Introduction to Psychology.

Smile when I see you smile =)

10月24日的那一天，我们全家突然升级了。
我爸成了公公，我妈成了婆婆，我姐成了大姑，我二哥成了叔叔，我成了小姑!!
我哥成了爸爸，我大嫂成了姐姐。

这一天，就是Chloe Gan 颜可儿呱呱落地的这天了。
我们全家都乐翻了，就连我在国外也很兴奋呀，因为这是我们家第一个宝宝，她就是我们的Chloe 了。


我妈我姐几乎每天都往我哥家跑。
我哥每天都给婴儿拍照，我看到那些照片是都是一直都在笑着的，心里一直说好可爱好可爱，然后手一直按like like like =D

我妈说Chloe就长得跟我小时候一模一样，我是不怎么看得出来啦.lolz
那我也跟我妈开玩笑说，那很好ya, 以后就很美咯。hahaha.

好了说了这么久，要秀秀我们家Chloe 的照片了。 

大家好，我是颜可儿. =D

我们家象征性的酒窝。=D

我大哥和大嫂。<3

我好喜欢这张照片。我们家的小孩。都好可爱。尤其是中间的航航。

这张大家都笑得好开心。=D尤其是冠冠。

看他们笑，我也一直都在笑着，因为真是太可爱了啦。
<3


yes la, 要回家了咯。
再多两个星期。=D!!!

我知道你很难过

刚刚考完了一科，松懈了一下，看了一下康熙。haha ..
看康熙真的可以让我开怀大笑啦，一半我笑点也很低一下。

可是现在脑袋还是重重的，可能是上个礼拜读了太多太多，快要负荷不下了,如果我体重增加就怪你!! （瞪）。
ok, organic chem你现在快点从我的脑袋删除，让位给physiology 和 pyscho。。。

suppose to 要温习下明天要考的drug delivery我的最爱了,因为最少东西要记。
可是那本子我可是念了3次有多，有点闷有点闷有点闷~~

所以我就闲来无事来这里跟大家闲聊一下。
aiyo，本人最近的黑眼圈实在是惨不忍睹。
各位帅哥美女们，有什么方法可以消除黑眼圈的吗？
很annoying的lei, 怎么着也遮不掉，两团黑黑的=.= （气）

一半我也懂是我自己的错啦，所以黑眼圈你跑出来报复，上个星期，有时太迟睡了。
可是我太迟睡又不是zomok，是读书eh,是好事eh .. zomok你要跑出来？

所以我说，还是肝对我好一点，在这期间虽然肝，我对你不是很好，你还是没有跑出来报复我给我多长几颗痘。

话说回来，脑，我要谢谢你啦，在这段期间辛苦你了。
你不离不弃，就算我overuse你你也丝毫不埋怨（其实是我逼的），我爱你，考试后一定给你好好休息。

还有眼睛，我也觉得这阵子我对你有点过分。
回想那一天晚上，我突然想看看你，就仔细的在镜子和你对看，我含情脉脉看着你，你竟然疲累加上无神地看回我，还有那么一点点地红，让我立刻可怜你，立刻上床闭眼，最后还是因为时间太早睡不着就在玩手机。>.<

说到这里，大家都应该知道身为本人的organ有多辛苦吧。。
也不忘体桖一下你们自己的吧。大家要趁年轻多照顾身体，以后organ们才不会找你麻烦。


说到这里，大家也不用太担心我啦。
我还是好好的，过后就会好好休息的。=D


好啦，就说到这里了，gonna read the dd for the 4th time >.<